Mid week chat about life. Smile!

Hellooooooo! 

Good evening to all you Gigglers! Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I was cray cray busy and fell asleep quite early (lightweight – I know)

So today consisted of Uni (got a lift off Pops yay)… was okayyyy I suppose, but already know what I’m doing so sort of boring.
Then I went to weigh in my fat bottom and lost a pound! One whole pound of fat gone. If you haven’t seen what a pound of fat looks like then search it. It’s not much but it’s gone never to be seen again! So four pounds in total (yay me!)
I’m definitely on track again now and feel really psyched for the next week, despite B coming for the weekend, I’ve got my meals planned 🙂

It was my gorgeous nephew’s birthday too and it’s sooo cute to see the look on his face when he opens his pressies!

Oh well enough family talk..

Despite the busy day I’ve actually felt pretty shitty inside all day. Mind wandering, over-thinking and just general stress. I ready something earlier today that made so much sense to me:
“Nothing will fuck up your twenties more, than thinking you’re supposed to have your shit together.”
Whoever said this is just reet up my street! Yes! Thank you. Empathy towards us twenty-somethings who have no fucking clue what they are doing or where they are going with their lives. (Buy that lad a beer)

I also planned to spend the evening with B watching a film or something, but turns out he’s just made other plans with his uni friends so I’m pretty angry about that. Just ignores my calls and texts, then will crawl back tomorrow like “oh I’m sorry.” Fucktard. He’s supposed to be coming on Friday and it’s well pissed me off.

Time to take my AD I think! Sorry for the rant and rave but I can breathe now yayyyyyy.

Thanks for reading! Remember to smile Gigglers.

Signing out.

Giggles. X

Monday in Autumn.

Pissing down with rain and a hell load of wind to boot? Yeah it’s Monday again.

Today has been one of them where you’ve just not done much with yourself. Although I did go out and buy 5 brand new books by George Orwell. (If you haven’t read 1984, I urge you to go out, buy it and read it sooo much). It’s so captivating. But yeah, they should keep me busy if my mind decides to stay in one spot forrrrr an hour? Is that too much to ask? Thanks brain.

I’ve watched (for the thousandth time), Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It got me thinking, what if you just had ANY memory you wanted erased? One morning you’re married to the love of your life.. the next you wake up to find some stranger drinking your morning coffee? It is one thing to ponder on. (and I’d be pissed..get the F off my coffee)

Anyway..in my first post I stated I was fat. Now to anyone else it’s like ‘oh get over it, you’re fine the way you are, I’d kill to look like you..’ Well it’s just how you feel about yourself and I’ve decided to do something about that by joining Slimming World. I won’t bore you with the deets but you basically can eat as much healthy as possible and have 15 syns (bad food list).
So I’m in my second week (lost 3lb in my first) and I’ve just felt so hungry all week. I had no syns today until I came to watch a film where I had 9/15 and I do feel a bit more satisfied. I just don’t have much faith in it at all and don’t reckon I’ll lose much on Wednesday. I’ll hopefully be posting on Weds at how elated I am that I lost a lb. Can AD’s affect your weightloss??

So Wednesday is like my busiest day of the week.. my one day of study, which means I get to do plenty of walking, study for a couple hours, more walking, eat healthy and go step on the scales. (I love busy days)

I’m meant to go to some job thing tomorrow, but I’m not mentally ready for it. I’ve built myself up and up to it for days and then I just get anxious (like now), think of big crowded spaces, small rooms, false smiles and just can’t bring myself to do it. I’ll get another opportunity in this situation anyway which is good I suppose.

Me & B have been quite good the past couple of days. We’ve had a few chats and everything seems sort of back on track. I just want the best for him but it gets so tiring having to push someone to do their thing sometimes.. well most of the time.
I get to see him on Friday evening for 3 whole nights after nearly 3 weeks. It gives me so much to look forward to, seeing as I do nothing else these days.. and let’s face it LDR’s are NOT easy.

My Pops is off work for two weeks which is lovely, but is making some things a bit awks. He loves to watch the footie ALL day.. and I mean ALL day.. I mean come on Pops let me put on Comedy Central or the Disney channel. Plus I’ve wanted to get some exercise done and my rooms a cube so I’ve only got downstairs. Boooooo 😥

I‘m going to aim to try and post more in the day time when things pop to my mind rather than all at once like this, so hopefully you won’t be sat there thinking come onnnnn when is Giggles going to postttt?

Not so Giggles for you tonight though, sorry Gigglers. I’ll try better next time.

Signing out.

Giggles. X

P.s – remember to check out 1984 by George Orwell.
P.p.s – remember to smile

Welcome to my BLOG!

Welcome to my BLOG! (and my first post)

So I like writing diaries.. but it turns out I prefer my Chromebook.. so this is wayyyy easier and I can stop neglecting my diary so much and let my pen live.

I NEED to write.. about my day, my life, everything .. and if you want to listen.. well thanks 🙂

I’ll just start off with the basics.. call me Giggles.. you’ll find I’m probably not as happy as that sounds though (i love irony), but I like that word. I’m 20 years old and I’m studying at University. Im 4ft 8, over 200lbs and go to fat club. I have a boyfriend (we’ll get onto that later but call him B) and my life pretttyyy much blows at the moment.

Welcome to my blog anyhow, and I hope to meet some lovely new Gigglers who will follow and support me.

Signing out.

Giggles. X