Mid week chat about life. Smile!

Hellooooooo! 

Good evening to all you Gigglers! Sorry I didn’t post yesterday. I was cray cray busy and fell asleep quite early (lightweight – I know)

So today consisted of Uni (got a lift off Pops yay)… was okayyyy I suppose, but already know what I’m doing so sort of boring.
Then I went to weigh in my fat bottom and lost a pound! One whole pound of fat gone. If you haven’t seen what a pound of fat looks like then search it. It’s not much but it’s gone never to be seen again! So four pounds in total (yay me!)
I’m definitely on track again now and feel really psyched for the next week, despite B coming for the weekend, I’ve got my meals planned 🙂

It was my gorgeous nephew’s birthday too and it’s sooo cute to see the look on his face when he opens his pressies!

Oh well enough family talk..

Despite the busy day I’ve actually felt pretty shitty inside all day. Mind wandering, over-thinking and just general stress. I ready something earlier today that made so much sense to me:
“Nothing will fuck up your twenties more, than thinking you’re supposed to have your shit together.”
Whoever said this is just reet up my street! Yes! Thank you. Empathy towards us twenty-somethings who have no fucking clue what they are doing or where they are going with their lives. (Buy that lad a beer)

I also planned to spend the evening with B watching a film or something, but turns out he’s just made other plans with his uni friends so I’m pretty angry about that. Just ignores my calls and texts, then will crawl back tomorrow like “oh I’m sorry.” Fucktard. He’s supposed to be coming on Friday and it’s well pissed me off.

Time to take my AD I think! Sorry for the rant and rave but I can breathe now yayyyyyy.

Thanks for reading! Remember to smile Gigglers.

Signing out.

Giggles. X

Monday in Autumn.

Pissing down with rain and a hell load of wind to boot? Yeah it’s Monday again.

Today has been one of them where you’ve just not done much with yourself. Although I did go out and buy 5 brand new books by George Orwell. (If you haven’t read 1984, I urge you to go out, buy it and read it sooo much). It’s so captivating. But yeah, they should keep me busy if my mind decides to stay in one spot forrrrr an hour? Is that too much to ask? Thanks brain.

I’ve watched (for the thousandth time), Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind. It got me thinking, what if you just had ANY memory you wanted erased? One morning you’re married to the love of your life.. the next you wake up to find some stranger drinking your morning coffee? It is one thing to ponder on. (and I’d be pissed..get the F off my coffee)

Anyway..in my first post I stated I was fat. Now to anyone else it’s like ‘oh get over it, you’re fine the way you are, I’d kill to look like you..’ Well it’s just how you feel about yourself and I’ve decided to do something about that by joining Slimming World. I won’t bore you with the deets but you basically can eat as much healthy as possible and have 15 syns (bad food list).
So I’m in my second week (lost 3lb in my first) and I’ve just felt so hungry all week. I had no syns today until I came to watch a film where I had 9/15 and I do feel a bit more satisfied. I just don’t have much faith in it at all and don’t reckon I’ll lose much on Wednesday. I’ll hopefully be posting on Weds at how elated I am that I lost a lb. Can AD’s affect your weightloss??

So Wednesday is like my busiest day of the week.. my one day of study, which means I get to do plenty of walking, study for a couple hours, more walking, eat healthy and go step on the scales. (I love busy days)

I’m meant to go to some job thing tomorrow, but I’m not mentally ready for it. I’ve built myself up and up to it for days and then I just get anxious (like now), think of big crowded spaces, small rooms, false smiles and just can’t bring myself to do it. I’ll get another opportunity in this situation anyway which is good I suppose.

Me & B have been quite good the past couple of days. We’ve had a few chats and everything seems sort of back on track. I just want the best for him but it gets so tiring having to push someone to do their thing sometimes.. well most of the time.
I get to see him on Friday evening for 3 whole nights after nearly 3 weeks. It gives me so much to look forward to, seeing as I do nothing else these days.. and let’s face it LDR’s are NOT easy.

My Pops is off work for two weeks which is lovely, but is making some things a bit awks. He loves to watch the footie ALL day.. and I mean ALL day.. I mean come on Pops let me put on Comedy Central or the Disney channel. Plus I’ve wanted to get some exercise done and my rooms a cube so I’ve only got downstairs. Boooooo 😥

I‘m going to aim to try and post more in the day time when things pop to my mind rather than all at once like this, so hopefully you won’t be sat there thinking come onnnnn when is Giggles going to postttt?

Not so Giggles for you tonight though, sorry Gigglers. I’ll try better next time.

Signing out.

Giggles. X

P.s – remember to check out 1984 by George Orwell.
P.p.s – remember to smile

Lazy Sundays.. and relationships

We’ve all seen those films, ‘Notting Hill,’ ‘Love Actually,’ ‘When Harry Met Sally.’ Those really intimate films that you admire so much and want so much. So excuse my ‘Giggle Blog’ irony.. but they’re NOT like the movies (and that SUCKS)!

You see two people completely in love and want to be held the same, you want to mean that much to someone else and you long for a ‘happy ever after.’ (Cheese alert)

When did relationships become so difficult? When we are so involved with Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, it’s sometimes SO hard to see what is really in front of you. Sitting in front of the TV with a share bag of crisps just doesn’t cut it sometimes. Are women just hard to please? Or is it men?

I’ve been with B for nearly 3 years. After the amazing honeymoon period, things seem to get so much more serious. Don’t get me wrong I like it, but sometimes I wish we still stayed up for hours chatting & laughing. We live apart (because of studies) which puts a HUGE strain on our relationship every day we are apart. However, perks include meeting up again.. that first hug. So warm and such a safe feeling. Every day we’ve missed out on we spend cuddling in bed, watching films, going out to eat, the cinema.. just bliss.

So lately I’ve been really stressed.. I have to redo a year of my studies due to X reason which I refer to as “the thing that happened in the past.” I haven’t quite got to giving it a nickname yet apart from it is SHIT and I will get onto it one day in the Giggle Blog future.. but it’s put so much strain on us and I’ve found B in his man cave a lot more. Like yeah guys need their space cos you know..women can be overbearing bitches.. but I need him and he knows this so much.

I recently started taking AD’s again to get me on a normal level but they’re making me groggy and snappy too.. can’t win can we? Is anyone else on AD’s? I’d like to hear from you and your experiences. It’s nice to take comfort for each other when let’s face it.. I’m just a computer screen and some text 😉

Is anyone else struggling with a long distance relationship.. whether you’re in a hetero, homo, open, complicated one ? Feel free to comment on my Giggle Blog and I will always return your comments.

So whatever your age, relationship status, relationship type, please get in touch. Helping & getting advice from someone you don’t know is so much easier than a family member or someone who is linked to you i.e. work, studies, friend.

Giggle Blogs is here for you.. and I’ll always share my day with you when I can.

Signing out.

Giggles. X